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DEGENERATE<\/strong><\/span><\/h1>\n

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DEL IN 1979<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

VJ discovered there was an old abandoned mental hospital a couple of stops down the line in Kilburn called St Monica\u2019s where Jake Heretic and his friends were squatting, I knew I had to find it.<\/p>\n

On the way VJ told me stories of how haunted the place was. When we found the place, walking into the derelict building almost felt like coming home.<\/p>\n

We found the large ward upstairs at the front of the asylum where people congregated. The older punks, Aussie Bob, Wank Stain, Jake Heretic and some others weren\u2019t hostile, they just ignored us.<\/p>\n

Mitch and Ruthless were kind although VJ kept his distance. He was more into Tubeway Army and wearing makeup by then.<\/p>\n

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Ruthless was the first girl I\u2019d seen with a mohican, and you couldn\u2019t miss her bust. I thought she looked magnificent and while I was trying not to stare Sniper entered the ward.<\/p>\n

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THE HERETICS – SNIPER \/ SI \/ JAKE \/ SAM
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VJ asked Sniper about the ghosties, and he performed magnificently. He was speeding off his tits standing in the middle of the ward surrounded by rusty old bed frames. In the fading light, back hunched, fingers clawed and wide eyed as he recalled in a gravelly Yorkshire accent all the eerie supernatural events, and he went on for hours. He punctuated all the loud bumps and impregnated all the pauses until we were convinced we could hear them ourselves. His facial expressions told the story of the horrors that awaited us in the dark hours and we were engrossed. He put VJ\u2019s tales to shame and by the dead of night we\u2019d scared ourselves silly. But I still remember sleeping soundly that night.<\/p>\n

VJ woke me early next morning wanting to go home. I didn\u2019t want to but left anyway.<\/p>\n

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I returned when I could on my own. One day I found Mitch with a bottle of Indian ink and a needle. I couldn\u2019t back out so let her tattoo my name on my arm. That was when I decided my name had only one L.<\/p>\n

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One night at the Marquee I started chatting to George another punk who liked to wear makeup. He was with his mate Kirk. Eventually I got round to asking George, in hindsight the stupidest question I\u2019ve ever asked; \u201cAre you gay?\u201d He looked on me with pity and instead of calling me a twat or worse he explained he was human and sexual, and the question was irrelevant. It all made a kind of sense.<\/p>\n

At this time my father decided that I should go to college and get a trade. I think he needed to salve his conscience so he could later say \u201cwell at least I tried\u201d. I was enrolled in Middlesex Polytechnic which later became the University. I was taking technology, industrial history and maths to eventually get my City and Guilds certificate. Apart from the field trips to look at beautiful old buildings, I hated it. I\u2019d already had a good taste of freedom and going back to school wasn\u2019t what I wanted.<\/p>\n

After enduring two months of it I gave my bondage trousers to a classmate and left. I had better things to do.<\/p>\n

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CHAOS<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Back in Harrow Dino had formed a band called Chaos. One of their first gigs was at Unit One in Uxbridge.<\/p>\n

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All the local punks, the Woodstocks and the Hillingdon, Womble, the Hayes and the Harrow punks turned up. Most of them I already knew but by the end of the evening I was getting on with the drummer Scarecrow who told me about the squat where he lived in Kennington.<\/p>\n

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After the gig I went back there with him and met Mad Dog, Liz, Brummy Mark and Scrubber who I shared a room with. Although Scrubber was my first proper taste of sex, with others in the room, it didn\u2019t feel much different from my first time. I never thought she was a girlfriend. I didn\u2019t think she even liked me.<\/p>\n

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I was just sixteen and didn\u2019t go \u2018home\u2019 for a month.<\/p>\n

The squat was opposite Kennington tube and to the right a bit. It was an estate ready for demolition due to subsidence.<\/p>\n

Pygmy was a six foot three skinny black fourteen year old with a mohican and a glue bag constantly attached to his face. He taught me not to put round things on the floor or they tended to migrate to the fire, staggering in the middle of the room had much the same effect.<\/p>\n

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One night Scrubber, the worse for tuinol and Merrydown cider, succumbed to the subsidence and magnetic pull of the fireplace. She narrowly missed taking the squats prized possession, the record player with her. The Ramones scratched as she went rear first into the fire and her jumper went up in flames. As the smell of singed hair filled the room Scarecrow jumped to the rescue, putting the Ramones back on as Scrubber grudgingly wasted good cider on the flames.<\/p>\n

Getting up the staircase to bed in the dark was difficult enough without the drugs, the lack of an even line or straight edge in the building made it an almost Alpine experience.<\/p>\n

There was no water in the place so we were appropriately filthy. The toilet didn\u2019t flush but laziness saw its continual use until even we were disgusted at the size of the pile and the stench. We found a hammer and nailed the door shut with some rusty six inch nails we\u2019d found so we couldn\u2019t use it any more. It reduced the smell too.<\/p>\n

We then opened another place three doors down just for its flush-less loo which was almost immediately overwhelmed. Eventually if we got caught short we spread newspaper in the bath, took a shit on that then rolled it up into packages.
\nWe then aimed over the balcony at one of those big round bins five or six floors below.<\/p>\n

Scarecrow let one drop one day without noticing the man walking his poodle. The wind caught the package and I nearly looked away as it narrowly missed the dog. The splatter radius was like a bomb blast. We both had the decency to wretch before we ran and hid.<\/p>\n

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One day Michelle brought her boyfriend Russ home. He\u2019d had all his hair shaved off and turned skinhead. At some point he decided he wanted my leather jacket and that he was going to rob me. Back in another circle facing another fight I didn\u2019t want, I looked to my new friends for support and was told in no uncertain terms to stick up for myself. It was a lesson I\u2019d already learned, but he was bigger than me so I was beaten and lost my jacket anyway.<\/p>\n

Next day my friends took me out on the tube to rob someone else of theirs, and I got a better one.<\/p>\n

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We took whichever opportunities arose and begged borrowed and stole our way to the Kings Road, gigs, parties, other squats and subway four at Piccadilly tube where we got our tuinol, a heavy barbiturate which went easily into syringes back in the squat. I hadn\u2019t started fixing yet myself but was already being asked to do needle work for others and was becoming quite good at it. I was never encouraged to fix myself and one of the first rules I learned was that you never fix anyone who hasn\u2019t fixed before.<\/p>\n

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One day I\u2019d just swallowed my tuinol when there was a knock on the door. Pygmy disappeared to answer. He soon returned with a grave expression on his face, stared at me from the door and said round the ever present glue bag, \u201cyour dad\u2019s at the door\u201d. I turned to stone.<\/p>\n

He\u2019d come down to south London with his mate in the work van. My mother had used the situation to berate and blame him so he was there to take me home.<\/p>\n

I was unceremoniously thrown in the back of the van on top of some plaster boards which were on top of a bucket in the middle of the van so continually unbalanced. As we weaved through London the tuinol started to hit. I was thrown around the back of the van like a rag doll, bouncing off one wall and then pitched into the other, to eventually be placed in a bruised, semi-conscious heap at my mother\u2019s feet. My father and his friend, job done, promptly vanished to leave me again in the cold misery of my childhood. I was thankful for the drugs. The next morning when they\u2019d worn off I went straight back to the squat.<\/p>\n

By then Scarecrow and me had swapped beds and I didn\u2019t need to risk the Alpine staircase any more.<\/p>\n

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Sometimes after a gig we\u2019d get stuck in the city. There were a few places to go until the trains started in the morning. One was round the back of Wardour Street, in Wardour Mews. This place was called the Eagles club.<\/p>\n

It was a dingy basement at the end of an alley with Baby, the fattest black man I had ever seen sitting on a drum stool at the front door. It was a basement half full of comatose punks waiting for sunrise, and the other half speeding off their tits. A bloke came up asking what I was after. I said tuinol. He knew I was skint but said he\u2019d introduce me to some friends round the corner. I went along and up into a room above a shop where two blokes shared their tuinol and wine.<\/p>\n

As the drugs started to take effect I was told to make myself comfortable, take off my jacket, then my boots. I sat and went with the flow. I was pulled back to semi consciousness by them removing my belt and trousers. The thought \u2018they must be gay\u2019 entered my mind but these weren\u2019t like gays I knew.<\/p>\n

They cuffed my hands behind my back and both raped me on the floor.<\/p>\n

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The next morning I had to plead for release. When they let me go I was still wasted, barbed out and stumbling towards the station trying to beg my fares. I didn\u2019t get anywhere. I eventually ended up in the Music Machine and bumped into Costa and Pinki. Costa was one of the gays on the punk scene which overlapped with the gay scene at the time. He took the time to help talk me down.<\/p>\n

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I already knew \u2018they weren\u2019t all like that\u2019. By the end of the night I remember feeling comfortable enough to sleep in the same bed as him, with Pinki in-between us both of course.<\/p>\n

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The next day I found myself stumbling up the Kings Road still a bit dazed. I bumped into George and got talking. I told him what had happened to me and he was angry. He asked me what they looked like and where it happened exactly, which I couldn\u2019t pinpoint. He talked to me as a mate and took me to the Chelsea Potter and fed me. I remember sitting there and not really saying anything, just eating, and the normality of it all kind of cured me.<\/p>\n

It would have been so easy to turn bitter and hateful. I was so lucky to have good people around me.<\/p>\n

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On one of my odd visits \u2018home\u2019 a girl called Tracy from the other side of Harrow with a biker brother called Basher gave me a mohican in her kitchen. I couldn\u2019t help notice how every time I went back there were more and more punks. All the youngsters round the edges of the local scene were getting hooked and becoming a community.<\/p>\n

We\u2019d got to hear that Spizz Energy were doing a TV show and wanted some punks to come up. We filled the coach they\u2019d put on for us to Hatfield where Daly Thompson the athlete was hosting the \u2018young persons\u2019 debate show. Of course we\u2019d all got off our heads on the coach and by the time we arrived there were serious discussions about letting us in. Spizz being the diplomat soothed the ruffles while we sniggered our way through the door hiding our bottles and cans.<\/p>\n

Before the show Daly was trying to be nice. He asked me from a circle of admiring giggly teenage girls how I made my mohican stand up. Despite being on a debate show I didn\u2019t feel all that talkative at that particular point, but Spizz had asked us all to play nice so I smiled inwardly and made polite, while Daly took the piss to impress the girls. During the show he started to lose his cool after all the swearing kept ruining the takes, but being offensive little bastards we continued. We were spread throughout the crowd in little groups, trying to sneak swigs without the camera noticing.<\/p>\n

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Wobble had a bottle of Merrydown cider under her jacket with a straw which was cunningly attached to the side of her face. After a well worded reply by a smug young Christian Tory, Wobble shouted \u2018bollocks\u2019 to everyone\u2019s loud approval. Daly Thompson was not impressed.<\/p>\n

He ended the debate and fluffed his lines several times introducing Spizz Energy.<\/p>\n

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CHAOS<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Chaos were playing at the Kings Head Deptford. The pub was known to be a bit boisterous in there so Dino\u2019s brother Frog decided to come along for support. When we arrived the place was full of skinheads and Frog the rockabilly became a focal point.<\/p>\n

While Chaos were on stage a fight broke out and it seemed like all the skins in the pub took turns on him. His throat and face were cut but we managed to get him out alive. He refused to go to hospital and decided to get the train back home to Harrow instead while the band stayed to sort out the mess. I caught the tube back with him. On the way I convinced him to pop into Northwick Park hospital which was at our stop anyway. I phoned his parents while the nurses stitched him up and waited for them to arrive before I left.<\/p>\n

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Sarah used to follow the Ants and was squatting at Cato Road in Clapham a few stops down the line from us in Kennington. She took me back to Clapham with her one night after a gig. Being sixteen I followed my instincts and moved in.<\/p>\n

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Clapham seemed to be full of Belfast punks from both the Catholic and Protestant communities. They had all come to London to settle in the squats.<\/p>\n

There was another Jake, Deirdre, Siobhan, Gordy and Curly who told everyone he was asexual in the campest Belfast accent I had heard. Other punks and runaways from Birmingham and the Home Counties were also around. Leah, large Donna from Hackney, and Cliff who played drums for the Straps.<\/p>\n

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1979 was coming to an end and 1980 was fast approaching.<\/p>\n

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That New Years Eve the Ants were returning to the Electric Ballroom in Camden. I\u2019d seen them there earlier in the year and couldn\u2019t wait.<\/p>\n

Poncing at Camden tube before the gig I got talking to a bloke from up north. He\u2019d looked at me, then turned to his mate and said \u201cEre look, \u2018e\u2019s got green \u2018air\u201d. Actually it was faded peacock blue but before I could point this out he\u2019d caught sight of Scrubber, Sarah and Michelle poncing spare change in boots and leathers in the station behind me. He said earnestly \u201cI don\u2019t know how you can touch those punk girls\u201d and at that moment out of the corner of his eye he noticed Angel march up the escalator and through the station. She had long white shaggy hair a beautiful face, ample cleavage, thigh boots, mini skirt and stockings, studded leather jacket and a bull whip in her hand. The bloke\u2019s head did a slow but complete 180 degree turn watching her as she strode passed, then snapped back to me slack jawed. I didn\u2019t say a word. I just folded my arms and smiled smugly. It may not be the best example but at that moment I felt so proud of punk women.<\/p>\n

I loved Ants gigs and all the squats in London seemed to turn out for this one.<\/p>\n

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It was as if everyone was there, tall skinny Tony D weaving back through the same crowd flogging his new fanzine \u2018Kill Your Pet Puppy\u2019, copies of which would later on be found in all the squats, and the means by which a load of us discovered what was happening on the wider scene we were a part of.<\/p>\n

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There was such a good atmosphere that night and everyone seemed to have a smile on their face, the Ants really performed as well. After a brilliant gig some people walked up to Trafalgar Square. I was drunk and happy and just generally partied through London that night on a slow roundabout walk back to Clapham with the rest of them.<\/p>\n

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It had been a year since Sid Vicious had died and Pat Marx had organised a march from the Kings Road to Hyde Park to commemorate him, and all the punks from all the squats turned out for it. Along the way Pat had carried a bucket collecting spare change which he said was for Sid\u2019s mum.<\/p>\n

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By the time we reached Hyde Park the bucket was getting heavy and, like us, Pat noticed the line of skinheads marching parallel to us and shadowing us like a shark. The mood of the punks became quietened and people started to disappear.<\/p>\n

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As we neared the Serpentine lake Pat said his piece, declaring the day a success and making sure to remind any skinheads listening that the money wasn\u2019t his.<\/p>\n

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Pat hastily disappeared leaving a park full of skinheads and punks to sort it out themselves.<\/p>\n

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One punk went through the roof of the Serpentine restaurant, another couple ended up in the lake as fights broke out all over. The police were having the time of their lives chasing anything that ran but most people managed to escape in ones and twos while all hell broke loose.<\/p>\n

After the park I\u2019d moved in the opposite direction to any skinheads I saw and eventually found myself looking in the window of Great Frog.<\/p>\n

I\u2019d started to relax then walked back round the corner onto Carnaby Street just in perfect time to be confronted by a wall of skinheads the width of the street coming straight towards me. I was like a rabbit caught in the headlights, but I knew if I ran I\u2019d be chased down so instead I nonchalantly sauntered to one side looking at the skins I knew in turn, and to my amazement I was left alone.<\/p>\n

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The squat was becoming a bit over full, excellent fun but tempers frayed in close quarters, so Sarah was moving stuff to a new place in Brixton.<\/p>\n

She\u2019d lived in Villa Road before and Michelle and skinhead Russ were living there too. There were a load of punks squatting in Brixton at the time from the front line to the barrier block. The Glasgow punks, Zaza, Fibro, Rab and Jimmy, Jock Strap and Irish Tom. They were easy enough to find, you just walked up the frontline and listened for Slaughter and the Dogs.<\/p>\n

Sarah packed up her stuff and with mattress on her back, said her \u2018see you laters\u2019 and set off for Brixton on the bus. A few days later She came back with Michelle.<\/p>\n

Their new place had been petrol bombed by rockabillies and Russ had been burned to death. Sarah had been out at a gig but Michelle and Russ were both there and barbed out of their heads.<\/p>\n

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Michelle told us how she\u2019d tried to wake him up but couldn\u2019t, and how she\u2019d tried to drag him out, right up until she had to get out herself to save her own life.<\/p>\n

She was in a real mess crying and still coughing from the smoke, she blamed herself and skinhead friends of Russ blamed her too.<\/p>\n

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Sarah called for a squat meeting one morning. A collective inward groan was heartfelt by all.<\/p>\n

Previous meetings to discuss the relevant issues which affected us all had descended into pitch battles and people got hurt at these things, usually by Sarah and the girls. She\u2019d screamed over the din at the first meeting that from now on you could only talk if you were holding the rolled up newspaper that she had in her hand, and she\u2019d got the last word. Of course the next squat meet everyone brought their own rolled up newspaper, which also make handy weapons and our second attempt at democracy ended with Belfast Jake and Perry needing to visit St Thomas\u2019s.<\/p>\n

By the meeting after that one I\u2019d acquired a postman\u2019s hat, placed the band across the top and a skull and crossbones on the front. Sarah had called it the Adolf hat and decided she could make a better point with it than a rolled up newspaper. To be fair that meeting resulted in us organising the supermarket skips between us and what gigs and parties we were going to. Sarah was quite proud of herself, but despite the hat I think we all agreed simply because we all wanted to eat, go to gigs and not get hurt.<\/p>\n

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This particular morning we all thought we knew what we were doing already so to be summoned for a meeting was quite disconcerting for everyone. I just hoped it didn\u2019t end in hospital again. An ominous air of dread you could almost taste descended as we all slowly filed into the front room and sat, Sarah was stood, her back to the fire place, hands on hips in her leather and boots, the Adolf hat was already firmly secured to her head and a grim expression on her face.<\/p>\n

A resigned and apologetic Belfast Jake was last to meekly enter and be seated. He looked up at Sarah\u2019s face and whispered \u201coh shit\u201d almost to himself.<\/p>\n

She waited for silence then waited some more for effect then in a deep stern but matter of fact tone informed us all that at the Martian Dance gig the previous night, Grant from Wood Green had told her that he had the clap. The implications were obvious, she hadn\u2019t seen him for a month and in that time half the squat had probably caught it.<\/p>\n

The dread sank in as it dawned that we\u2019d all be visiting St Thomas\u2019s on mass that day.<\/p>\n

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Belfast Jake started to regale us with stories of little metal hooks, needles and umbrellas that they like to poke down the eye of your dick and torture you with.<\/p>\n

Like lost sheep Sarah rounded six of us up and after we\u2019d consumed all and any drink and drugs we had stashed at the squat and a subsequent visit to the local off licence on the way, she herded us off on the tube to the clap clinic.<\/p>\n

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Large Donna was last up the escalator at Waterloo station and nearly got caught as we all bunked through so we had to leg it from the tube. A bit puffed out but in newly buoyed spirits we stumbled into the hospital. Strangely a porter seemed to already know where we were going before we did and silently pointed us in the right direction without a question being asked.<\/p>\n

In silent contemplation we walked through the clap clinic doors, two of the prettiest nurses I had ever seen took over from Sarah and shepherded us off to little cubicles to do their experiments. I thought it was all relatively painless but I could hear through the curtains another pretty nurse trying to hide the irony as she told Perry in an understanding voice \u201cit\u2019s OK, it happens\u201d as he dripped discharge over the floor. He had point blank refused one of the procedures and in another cubicle Belfast Jake had come over all faint and heaved at the sight of another.<\/p>\n

Then we had to sit and write down all the names of people we\u2019d had sex with in the last month. Various versions of Mickey Mouse made it down on paper but in our heads it became clear that we\u2019d have to send out diplomatic emissaries to several other squats in London.<\/p>\n

After a handful of antibiotic on top of the drink and other drugs and a round of knowing pitiful smiles from the nurses we left to lick our wounds back at the squat.<\/p>\n

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THE WALL<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

The squat was over full so eventually the Belfast mob, me, Leah, Cliff and a few others found a place opposite side of the High Street in Edgley Road upstairs to Rab Fae Beith, the drummer from the Pack and the Wall.<\/p>\n

The cycle of sex and drugs, begging and gigs, parties and punk were balanced by the ever present hunger and poverty. We\u2019d all take it in turns to do the bread run in the mornings, prowl the streets for the odd pint of milk on a doorstep and sometimes butter and a block of cheese. We even sometimes got eggs and bacon if we caught a milk float unattended, then to local bakers before they opened and after a delivery of warm fresh baked bread, we\u2019d shoplift and ponce our way up the High Street and outside the tube.<\/p>\n

Of an evening we\u2019d take turns doing the rounds of the skips behind the local supermarkets where apart from the ever present yoghurt soaked bread rolls in the bottom sometimes you could get lucky and the whole squat ate, we always shared but usually after we\u2019d eaten our fill.<\/p>\n

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We were all runaways from something. I don\u2019t think anyone in the squat was old enough to sign on the dole except Cliff, and desperation always nagged. Mickey the Noo was Siobhan\u2019s boyfriend, an I.R.A. supporter from Glasgow with a green Mohican. He\u2019d prowl the underground and rob people as a supplement to begging. Sometimes he took me with him for backing but he always came home with goodies.<\/p>\n

The local copper nicked me while poncing for spare change outside Clapham North tube. Being on a two year bender I gave them an alias and they threw me in the cells. They told me I\u2019d been arrested for mugging on the underground, they kept me there for a few days but had to let me go because my accent wasn\u2019t Glaswegian and my mohican wasn\u2019t green and the victim refused to say different. I got back to the squat and warned Mickey who promptly cut his hair off, and the next day he went robbing as a skinhead. He came back that night with two tickets for Siouxsie And The Banshees at the Music Machine. When asked where he got them from he said he\u2019d robbed a couple of punks on the tube, which didn\u2019t go down well. We all refused the spare ticket and the night of the gig we let Mickey go in alone, which was lucky because the people who he\u2019d robbed were waiting in the foyer with the police to point him out. He was dragged off to the nick and we never saw him again.<\/p>\n

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One morning before Cliff set off for band rehearsals with the Straps, he sat and ate his Frosties in front of us without sharing. After he\u2019d locked his door and gone, Belfast Jake decided that as punishment for being a greedy bastard Cliff deserved to lose his cereal, but instead of breaking Cliff\u2019s new lock Belfast Jake decided to take a hammer to the wall between Cliff\u2019s room and mine. Plaster and lathes lay in rubble on my mattress under the hole, which was big enough to pull the Frosties box through, Belfast Jake ate his fill, then put rubble in the box and returned it through the hole.<\/p>\n

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When Cliff came home from rehearsals that night he was already in a dejected mood. Apparently he\u2019d been kicked out of the band for always having a glue bag in his face. He sat down and told us the sorry tale of the day\u2019s events without seeing the hole in the wall behind him. As his story petered out we all agreed his luck was truly dire, as he went to unlock his door we all waited, but no hollering. A dejected Cliff just looked at the hole and said \u201cfigures\u201d then a big beaming grin took over his face as he sat down with his bowl and milk and said \u201call a man can do at a time like this is eat his Frosties\u201d and smiled again.<\/p>\n

We watched him pour the rubble into his bowl, we tried to suppress our upwelling sniggers, which just made it worse. Cliff didn\u2019t see the funny side and the obvious eruption of boots and fists ended in Belfast Jake nursing a broken bloodied nose on the floor. At that point Rab from downstairs came in to complain about the noise again, being older and more sensible than us and seeing the hole in the wall and the state of Jake he took the opportunity to berate us all for being a useless bunch of cunts and ordered us to shut the fuck up.<\/p>\n

The next few days were quiet.<\/p>\n

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A few days later Siobhan and Deirdre decided the subdued Belfast Jake needed cheering up. He\u2019d been moping in the mirror over his newly bent nose but eventually joined in the rough and tumble wrestling on the floor. It wasn\u2019t long before he yelped again in pain. Siobhan had clumped him in the face, but as his hands left his nose he began smiling. She\u2019d unwittingly knocked it back into place. Belfast Jake hugged her in sheer delight and gratitude.<\/p>\n

Staggering up the stairs in Clapham one night I fell and banged my knee. Over the next few days the ache got worse and I had to see a doctor. Balham hospital didn\u2019t know what was up with me but put me in bed in skin traction anyway.<\/p>\n

People like to complain about hospital food but when you\u2019re used to bugger all it tasted good. I stashed what I didn\u2019t eat and the visits from the squat dwellers tended to coincide with one meal time or another so others could get a feed as well.<\/p>\n

While Michelle stuffed her face with leftover peas and gravy Sarah tried to curb her enthusiasm about all the gigs I had missed, and her excitement about the ones I was going to miss.<\/p>\n

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The doctors took me into theatre, sedated me and took some fluid from my knee. I dreamed I was back in college, on a field trip to an old church. I felt the same need to escape I had in college but the old church was beautiful, the class entered to look around at the architecture. From the old beams in the roof hung a huge chimney type circular structure almost bell shaped, the bottom of which hung at chest height in the middle of the room, from inside light poured out. The class all bent to look under the rim to see where the light was coming from. The teacher warned too late not to go under. I became weightless and started drifting upwards backside first. I started slowly spinning as I looked down on the faces around the rim as they grew smaller, then spinning faster the higher I was drawn, and faster still into the light. I woke shaking my head back and forth back in traction in bed.<\/p>\n

When the doctor made his rounds I told him I was all better now and could I go home now please. The next day they gave me the big plastic bag they\u2019d sealed my clothes up in and a pair of crutches. My clothes were already rotten but as I opened the bag I gagged, I\u2019d left a pot of curry sauce in the donkey jacket pocket which had turned to mould and grown through everything else. I rinsed what I could and dressed.<\/p>\n

As I hobbled on crutches out of the ward I was sure the squat could smell me coming.<\/p>\n

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THE STRAPS – MUSIC MACHINE<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

That night in the Music Machine those crutches got used in various and imaginative ways by several people there, they didn\u2019t last long.<\/p>\n

Siobhan and Deirdre needed a bath and didn\u2019t want to use the locals so with a couple of others we set off to my mothers. We walked through the council houses to the large looking house set back on a bend in the road. My father had built it up to look impressive on the outside, but inside it was still the same old building site. The girls had hoped for hot water and maybe a feed but got neither.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

I was going back home to Harrow less often, usually to take stuff back that I\u2019d collected, records, clothes and so forth, and to get cleaned up and then see some local mates. I hadn\u2019t been back in a while but when a stranger answered the front door and told me my family had moved I was a bit surprised. He said he didn\u2019t have a clue where they\u2019d moved too and closed the door. My mother had told me on the previous visit that she\u2019d finally agreed to sell the place but I didn\u2019t think it was that long since my last visit.<\/p>\n

Her brother lived about a mile up the road so I went knocking on his door to ask if he\u2019d seen them, I discovered they\u2019d moved just round the corner from him. From the sale of the house my father and mother had both paid off their debts and bought this house out right, my father taking a smaller cut he said so myself and my sisters would always have a roof over our heads. My stuff was piled up in the box room but I managed to make a little nest for myself which didn\u2019t feel like home but made a nicer short term escape than the previous house at least for a while away from the squats.<\/p>\n

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On the phone my dad had told me he and Sue had bought a big house in north London that still had three sitting tenants. He said he\u2019d pay us a hundred quid to squat in it for a week to get rid of them, Five of us moved in, Large Donna, Elaine, Michelle, Curly from Belfast and myself.<\/span><\/span> We had to share a bathroom and toilet with the tenants and totally took the piss. The police were called, I gave a Mickey Mouse name but we were allowed to stay after my father made a show of taking pity on us.<\/p>\n

A couple of days later when all was quiet I noticed my dad was there and chanced a knock on his door. He let me in and left. I sat down at the table to wait and Sue came in through the other door behind me, plonked a baby on the table in front of me and said \u2018meet your sister\u2019, then also left. The baby looked at me with incomprehension and started to bawl until my father came back to retrieve her and take them both home.<\/p>\n

Back in the rooms next door the party continued. The smell of glue permeated the house as strongly as the toilet and the noise, and by the end of the week two of the tenants had left.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

Siobhan came back from a gig that night and looked uncharacteristically pensive, then with an innocent face that only an Irish Catholic can pull off said \u201cthey just sort of followed me home\u201d. I looked outside, and on the doorstep were nine tenths of the Dusseldorf punks, the more the merrier I thought, and let them in.<\/p>\n

At weeks end it was time for Sue to move in with the baby and for us to go, we piled all of our stuff in the back of my father\u2019s van.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

Elaine from Blackpool and Sarah had scouted out a couple of possible places back in Clapham so my father dumped us and our pile of stuff by the side of the road on an estate opposite Clapham North tube, gave five of us twenty quid each and left.<\/p>\n

The first place we were kicked out of by the police within an hour, the second place though the police left us alone.<\/p>\n

It didn\u2019t look too promising to start with, no gas, electricity or water, but I\u2019d been in a dive or two before and soon had the water and gas back on. The electricity though was a problem, there were just two wires sticking out of the wall in the cupboard where a meter should be. We went to a wrecked empty place we\u2019d seen earlier and took the meter then I wired it up in our new place, as the evening grew dark the lights came on to everyone\u2019s approval, before long I had the hot water on too, we all took turns in the bath and settled in.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

We saw George with his mate Philippe in the Kings Road and he told us about some exhibition or other and party. He also told us how the artists thought it would be wonderful if some punks came along, George expected us to take the piss and we duly delivered. We ate their food and drank their wine and behaved as degenerates are expected, pockets full and a quarter wheel of Edam in a roll in my hand we set off, next day the whole squat ate and drank.<\/p>\n

Next night I bumped into Heidi and some of her mates from Dusseldorf in the Marquee and told them we had a new squat, they came back. Heidi didn\u2019t speak English and I don\u2019t speak German. All we knew about each other was what her mate translated for us, and Belfast Jake had just managed to pull the translator. It didn\u2019t seem to matter, we enjoyed each other immensely and when we could drag ourselves from the bed I showed her the Kings Road.<\/p>\n

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\"\"<\/p>\n

It started to rain; we took shelter in the doorway of Boy. Heidi was stunning, tall and slim, fit, beautiful and blonde, a kind of German Debbie Harry.<\/p>\n

\"\"
\nJock Strap who worked in Boy had clocked her and zeroed in. He started his fast raw Glaswegian patter not knowing she couldn\u2019t speak a word of English. Seeing my growing amusement she smiled sweetly, which just encouraged Jock all the more. She certainly kept us out the rain that day.<\/p>\n

A few weeks after she\u2019d gone back to Dusseldorf the postman knocked on the door. Heidi had sent a food parcel to the squat and we all remembered her well.<\/p>\n

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I came back one morning after a gig and party to find Belfast Jake in the street outside the squat smoking a dog end and looking unusually pensive. He was acting odd but only said \u201cyou should have been here last night, Leah was off her head\u201d and tried to laugh. He came in with me, walked in the front room (mine and Leah\u2019s bedroom) and sat down.<\/p>\n

He had an awkward smile on his face as he asked Leah \u201cdo you remember last night?\u201d, she looked at him coldly and said \u201cI remember you all fucked me\u201d and stared straight at him some more. Belfast Jake\u2019s head hung in shame and his red cheeks tried to pull a smile as if it were a joke.<\/p>\n

Leah reminded me of my youngest sister, although she looked like her I actually got on with Leah, and I felt guilty for years that I wasn\u2019t there to stop them.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

Out on the ponce I bumped into Mitch. She said her, Ruthless, Aussie Bob and a few others had a new place. I went back with her to a severe Victorian looking block on an estate behind Lambeth North tube station.<\/p>\n

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Campbell Buildings were being pulled down due to them being old infested shitholes that were already crumbling, but Ruthless was very accommodating so I stayed. The place was filthy but Ruthless and Mitch had found ways to combat the pile up of rubbish by sweeping it into the corners and under the carpet.<\/p>\n

Apart from the smell this worked fine for a while, until one fine sunny day when light found its way into the corners of the room as well. At first my eyes noticed but my brain didn\u2019t register that the carpet was moving all by itself in the sunlight. While my brain caught up Mitch noticed me staring at the gently undulating carpet in the corner of the room. She got up and beckoned me over then she pulled the carpet back to reveal a thick layer of maggots. There must have been thousands of them, but apparently they got rid of the rubbish so were left alone \u2018for the time being\u2019.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

As the council emptied the next block in line for demolition the squatters started to move in and the quicker they did the quicker the remaining tenants moved out.<\/p>\n

It was early 1980 and the punk squat community had spread. Campbell Buildings would soon became an over spill for all the squats in London and the surrounding areas, runaways from family and childrens homes, asylums, estates and suburbs from all over Britain, Ireland and beyond.<\/p>\n

I saw Scarecrow in the Marquee, I hadn\u2019t seen him for a while, he was looking well, back with his folks, clean and healthy, I said to him \u201cyou\u2019ve got to come back and see where we\u2019re living now\u201d. The gigs and parties were almost endless by then and acquiring drugs for free had become an essential.<\/p>\n

Dr Manch was the local GP in a dingy little ground floor office come surgery. He was a short chubby, pasty faced Greek looking man who sweated profusely. He had a haunted hangdog expression etched into his face, as if he\u2019d been carrying his deflated pride around in his tatty fake leather bag with his whiskey for too many years. His surgery smelled of musk alcohol sweat and urine, or maybe that was just him, but he knew his job and wrote prescriptions endlessly for us all.<\/p>\n

I\u2019d told him that I couldn\u2019t sleep, and at first he\u2019d tried to explain the wonders of a good days work, but seeing only incomprehension and bafflement he soon gave up and palmed us off with mogadon or dalmane, but after one of the girls from the squats had sat in front of him with a handful of tuinol and said \u201cif you don\u2019t give me something stronger I\u2019ll swallow the lot\u201d he kind of gave in to us all.<\/p>\n

For a time it seemed like half the punk squatters in London went to him.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

I bumped into Slut out on the ponce one day, She used to live with Slag and Scrubber in Brixton before I knew them. The film \u2018The Great Rock And Roll Swindle\u2019 had just come out and it was showing at a cinema at Piccadilly Circus. Slut had some money from ‘working the ‘dilly’ that day so she took me to see the film.<\/p>\n

Afterwards we got off our heads, and she came back to the squat. Next day she went to see Dr Manch.<\/p>\n

Police raids were a regular thing that we\u2019d all become used to, so to prevent our stashes of pills from the good doctor being regularly confiscated we\u2019d started to hide them in more inventive ways. The police were stumped for a while, until one night the squat caught fire. This was nothing new for Campbell Buildings, but when some extremely stoned punks refused to leave a burning squat in favour of removing all the ceiling tiles, it didn\u2019t take long for the police to figure out and inform the fire brigade, that we weren\u2019t doing it because we were only trying to be helpful.<\/p>\n

We\u2019d began to push the pills one by one into the large polystyrene ceiling tiles that were to be found in every squat there, and if we didn\u2019t get them out we\u2019d lose our collective stash. The fact that the tiles were inflammable, and once alight dripped fire on everything below, was the reason many a squat was lost to fire in the first place, that and us finding varied and colourful ways of \u2018accidentally\u2019 igniting them.<\/p>\n

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UK SUBS<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

We went to see the UK Subs support Generation X at the Lyceum. The place was packed, but most of the \u2018proper\u2019 punks were there for the UK Subs because Generation X had become \u2018Top Of The Pops\u2019 sell-outs by then. There were loads of trendy poseurs there to see them though. There were also loads of the Whitton punks there. They were a part of the Subs crew in the early days and now the Subs were getting a bit more recognition so were the Whitton.<\/p>\n

As the UK Subs set came to an end all you could hear from the crowd was a continual chant of \u2018Subs Subs Subs\u2019 interspersed with \u2018Whitton Whitton\u2019. When Generation X came on the chanting continued. For the first four numbers all you could hear from the crowd was \u2018Subs Subs Subs\u2019.<\/p>\n

I was walking up the stairs at the side to the balcony when I noticed a beer can sailing, in what seemed like a slow motion perfect arc. Through the air and lights it flew to the stage and hit Billy Idol straight and hard in the head. He staggered off stage leaving the band to play to the chanting crowd by themselves. When the song finished there was a minute of silence from the stage, and all that could be heard was the chant.<\/p>\n

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CHARLIE HARPER – UK SUBS<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Eventually Billy Idol came back on stage with his arm around Charlie Harpers shoulder; Charlie took the mike and implored the crowd to \u201cgive them a chance, they\u2019re a good band really\u201d and left. So did most of the crowd.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

Campbell Buildings early one evening without a gig and still long hours before the soup kitchens arrival Ruthless had the idea we should try to fend off starvation by eating the local feral cats. That night out on the scrounge we kept our eyes open, there were plenty to choose from.<\/p>\n

As I tried to coax one closer, instinctively on some level, one vicious little fucker recognised another, and even let me pick him up before turning into something like the Tasmanian devil in my arms. It flew straight at my face all four paws and teeth, a spitting hissing ball of ginger fluff and mange. I desperately tried to unhinge him but the bastard sliced my face and nearly had my eye. He gouged my hand and my arm through the leather jacket but I finally managed to untangle us, lever the bastard off and eject him up the street where he landed on all fours running, balls and tail in the air, before turning the corner he looked back, sprayed in my general direction then disappeared.<\/p>\n

As we checked the bins on the way to the soup kitchen my cat allergy set in and I thought \u2018there are easier ways to get a meal\u2019.<\/p>\n

On the way to the soup kitchen at night the cobblestones always looked wet; the smell of rot was greeted by decay the closer you got until the last street lamp before the arches faded.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

The viaducts under Waterloo station were like red brick cathedrals to the damp filthy and stinking remains of the streets. Winos, tramps, beggars, thieves, junkies, lowlife and punks all crowded around dustbin fires or in queue at the old van with its two milk urns full of soup.<\/p>\n

When a train wasn\u2019t rattling over us or one of the other viaducts, the sound fell enough to hear the odd spit from the fire or curse from a dosser, just to be covered again by the next rattling train.<\/p>\n

After standing in line for a paper cupful of soup and a bread roll the fire looked tempting.<\/p>\n

Sometimes you could squeeze between the dossers and up close to the fire, then try to fend off hunger with the piss weak soup while watching the rats around the edges who fed off the rot, and the feral cats who fed off the rats.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/p>\n

Of an evening in Campbell Buildings it was sometimes necessary to escape to the roofs, not only from the police, or the noise, or another burned out squat, or the increasing tribes of invaders who were always on the prowl for punk squats to wreck. But just because it was nice up there.<\/p>\n

There was something very comforting about listening to the Kinks playing \u2018Waterloo Sunset\u2019 and \u2018Lola\u2019 on Ruthless\u2019s little cassette recorder, while watching the sun go down over Waterloo station. I never saw the river from the roofs of Campbell Buildings but I\u2019m convinced I smelt it.<\/p>\n

Campbell Buildings had now become an overflow for all the dregs of all the squats in London. For runaways from children\u2019s homes, asylums, council estates and broken suburban nightmares. I\u2019d known for a while that I had to get out of there.<\/p>\n

I left one night and went back to Harrow and bumped into Tony A, who was squatting in Hounslow with the Whitton punks and I decided to join him. The next morning I went back to Campbell Buildings to get my stuff and say my \u2018see you laters\u2019.<\/p>\n

I found Indian Keith crying. He told me he had gone up on the roofs that morning and found Scarecrow dead on his back. He had called the police who\u2019d arrived, and abruptly told Keith to fuck off, he said. While they were waiting for the mortuary van to arrive the two coppers were flicking little stone\u2019s from the roof at Scarecrows face trying to land them in his open mouth.<\/p>\n

Later that day Keith lead the toast to Scarecrow with tuinol and Merrydown cider, I left them to it.<\/p>\n

DEDICATED WITH RESPECT TO SCARECROW \/ RUSS \/ SNIPER \/ BARRY \/ RICHARD \/ KEITH \/ COSTA \/ PINKI \/ LISA – MAY THEY ALL REST IN PEACE.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

DEL BLYBEN<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

THANK YOU TO DEL BLYBEN FOR SHARING THIS ESSAY FOR THIS SUMMER SOLSTICE KYPP POST. <\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

THIS ESSAY IS ONLY A SMALL PART OF A HEFTY TOME THAT DEL HAS WRITTEN ABOUT HIS LIFE WHICH I AM HOPING I WILL GET TO READ MORE OF IN THE FUTURE.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

THANK YOU TO THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE WHOSE COLLECTIONS OF PERIOD PHOTOGRAPHS I HAVE USED TO HELP FILL UP THIS SUMMER SOLSTICE KYPP POST;<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

JOHNNY GRANT \/ ANDY HALFORD \/ SAM MORROW \/ TONY D \/ LEAH DURKAN \/ FAUSTO ORTENZI \/ KATIE KITKAT \/ SANDRA CLARKE \/ PHIL RITCHIE \/ DAVE C.B \/ SI HERETIC \/ GERRY FORD \/ DEL BLYBEN \/ ANN WOBBLE \/ HILDA MCMAHON \/ SHIV GALLAGER \/ MICKEY PENGUIN \/ LISA KIRBY (R.I.P).<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

MOST OF THE PHOTOGRAPHS HAVE BEEN ARRANGED IN SUCH A WAY SO THEY ARE RELEVANT TO THE TEXT BELOW THAT ACTUAL PHOTOGRAPH.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

MOST – BUT NOT ALL.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

SOME OF THE PHOTOGRAPHS ARE OF PEOPLE NOT MENTIONED IN THE ACTUAL ESSAY. I FEEL THAT THESE PEOPLE ALSO HAVE A REASON TO BE FEATURED WITHIN THIS SUMMER SOLSTICE KYPP POST AS THEY WERE AROUND THE PEOPLE AND THE PLACES THAT DEL DOES MENTION IN THE ESSAY.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

MICKEY PENGUIN<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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